Thoughts

Give Up

It’s been more than a year since my life was flipped upside down and forced to restart. I’ve tried for about a year to combine the new perfection with the old, because I think that I am ready to do so.

I just can’t help but feel like old life people might be scared to try the new life me.

Granted

It’s weird to think that I deserve everything I have when I know that people have literally died for me to even be able to act on a thought.

I take so much for granted when so much of what I take is simply granted to me. Selfishness is pervasive and prideful. It heads so many horrible things. I don’t want a lot of things, but the things I do want are things that I am loathe to give up.

The distinction is tough.

garretth95 asked: dude

What up, juicy?

What is satisfying?

I find myself questioning people and what they are more and more. I am very self-analytical and I know what drives me to do things that I want to do, which is exactly why people who seem to actually try to do boring stuff all the time kind of freak me out. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE a long dinner with great conversation or even just hanging out at someone’s house for a thousand hours. What makes that work, though, is having things to talk about other than high school, current school, and work. I don’t want to watch a movie every single week. I don’t want to eat cake every week. I don’t want to keep living the life that was so graciously given to me by the God of the universe by washing through it like some lame little stream of water. I want to visit places of worship of other faiths. I want to meet new people and do stupid stuff I never have. I want to be able to share my faith by living a life that screams out to others that I love living and I live to love for God. There is nothing better than having the unfiltered love of close friends at any time. If I want to drive all the way to Irvine Valley College and just to use an outdoor microwave to cook a single bag of popcorn and my other option is Marley and Me?

C’mon.

I’m not saying I want to do INSANE things all the time. I just don’t want to keep being someone that says “Oh I don’t like doing that” just because I’ve never tried it. I can’t help thinking that my life has a purpose and a meaning. I was born. That says enough. I need to live life powerfully and unashamedly for God. People need to know who I am. And they can’t know who I am if I don’t go out into the world and tell them.

Summer To-Do

I’m making a list of things I want to do this summer. I don’t want it to be lame.

None of that “beach every day” crap.

Number one on the list is “pee out of a moving car.”

Things will get wild.

Muslims

Visited a mosque last night.

I’m blown away by the love that the non-extremist Muslim community shows for not only Allah, but also for the love which they show others.

I had so many beautiful conversations last night with so many people. Disagreements were treated with the utmost respect and questions were answered. I will definitely be going back to love these people and if nothing else, to hang out.

Passionate people of faith in different religions meeting together in the same place to peacefully discuss and learn about each is something that is infinitely beautiful and awe-inspiring.